Hey everyone, so things have been super super busy. Two girls left my job – which is fine they are on to bigger and better things I guess. So the other receptionist and I had to sort of pull it together. Which meant a crazy amount of hours. The last 3 weeks I have averaged over 50 something hours per week. They did finally hire someone – but I had to train him. Also fine no problem just means more hours of working. Last week was supposed to be when he started on his own and I was excited for it. Mainly because it means I would be getting out of work at 3 pm instead of 6:30 pm. Also because Halloween is coming up and I would ACTUALLY have time to finish costumes this year in a timely manor.
Sadly the Saturday he was supposed to start he had a seizure on the train – apparently this is something that happens and he is on medication for it. He is ok, but his Dr said he needed to not work for the week. Mainly for appointments and to make sure everything really is ok. More work hours for me I guess. By Sunday I was insanely tired, to the point I was feeling dizzy and getting vertigo. If you have ever had to deal with that you’ll know its not fun at all. But I made it through, I got off work at 5 instead of 6. I went home kissed my family hello and promptly went to sleep for 2 hrs. Woke still feeling tired but able to move with no weirdness happening.
I put the last touches on Victors costume and started mine. I had such GLORIOUS PLANS – but it’s not going to happen. Not enough time in the day. Of course I realize that I didn’t even tell you guys what I planned on dressing as – lol
The face of someone who had a nice nap lol
I remember once……………
Life can be, well life. Things don’t turn out the way we think they will. When I was younger all though I wasn’t carefree I had a lot less worries and cares. Then I became an adult and everything as always changes.
Sometimes I sit and try and think about the things I wanted as a kid. It turns out most of the time I just wanted to be left alone. I didn’t have many friends unless they were relatives. I knew whatever it was job wise I wanted to be some sort of maker – but as is life things did not turn out that way.
I realize I don’t want to keep talking about how depressed I have been over the past weeks especially – no one wants to be a Debbie Downer. But I can’t shake this feeling and it feels like it might be getting worst. I have these hours of wanting to cry, which is NOT a good look at work. I’m not drowning myself in food or drugs. The small moments of joy I have is when I play ESO and Sims, I’ve noticed if I don’t have anyone to talk to in ESO while I play I get kinda sad and listless. This week that changes because I’m running an event on Sunday with one of my guilds, so the prep for it has been a bit much.
*PLEASE NOTE THIS IS A CONTINUATION AND 16 DAYS HAVE PASSED*
The event went great and I’m doing it again next week ^_^
Are you people still here? That’s cool thanks for staying around – LoL. So what’s been going on? Well I have been working a CRAZY amount, mainly because 2 people left and now I’m training the replacement. Mainly it’s starting early and leaving late, when I get home I feel dog tired. I nap about 30 minutes everyday when I get home.
Looking at myself in the mirror this morning I realized I have a LOT of gray hair. I mean I KNOW that in theory, but when you’re feeling drained it’s like everything sucks ass. I haven’t colored my hair in about 6 months, it was a nice blue. I was thinking about going back to black hair but it makes me looked so drained because of my undertone. Usually I do a lot of reds. I was kinda thinking of doing pink – but everyone seems to do that. I’ve been turning the idea around to go full gray – is that weird?
I don’t actually think these posts through – so the tiredness is getting the best of me. Don’t give up on me guys – promise I will pick it up better when I get some more sleep.