Life can be, well life. Things don’t turn out the way we think they will. When I was younger all though I wasn’t carefree I had a lot less worries and cares. Then I became an adult and everything as always changes.
Sometimes I sit and try and think about the things I wanted as a kid. It turns out most of the time I just wanted to be left alone. I didn’t have many friends unless they were relatives. I knew whatever it was job wise I wanted to be some sort of maker – but as is life things did not turn out that way.
I realize I don’t want to keep talking about how depressed I have been over the past weeks especially – no one wants to be a Debbie Downer. But I can’t shake this feeling and it feels like it might be getting worst. I have these hours of wanting to cry, which is NOT a good look at work. I’m not drowning myself in food or drugs. The small moments of joy I have is when I play ESO and Sims, I’ve noticed if I don’t have anyone to talk to in ESO while I play I get kinda sad and listless. This week that changes because I’m running an event on Sunday with one of my guilds, so the prep for it has been a bit much.
*PLEASE NOTE THIS IS A CONTINUATION AND 16 DAYS HAVE PASSED*
The event went great and I’m doing it again next week ^_^